14-06-2025
I have started my hormone replacement therapy on October 1st, 2024. At the point, obtaining and being on HRT was the next biggest milestone in my transition. I had already been presenting as a woman within the university, and I had finally been set free from the yoke staying at my parents' place was.
Needless to say, HRT was such a massive change in my life. I felt finally in tune with my body, and my soul. My body has started obtaining a shape with which I feel happy. I feel much more able to access and properly express my emotions. And, most importantly, this has helped me achieve a level of passing, both when it comes to passing as a woman in public, but also within myself, as I was, at last, consistently seeing a woman in the mirror.
This summer, I have started a new job as a Summer Housing Assistant in the university. This means that, after eight months of HRT, I am exposed to new people, who have never seen me before. People that have never seen me before a long exposure to HRT, let alone as something else other than a woman. And, apparently, I pass. Pretty well. People instantly use she/her pronouns to refer to me, I was placed in an apartment with three cool women coworkers, life is good.
However, this made me realize: I have never really thought about my life after transitioning. What happens when I have been on HRT for so long, that no one can even fathom perceiving me as a man, at least in person? What happens when I finalize the few remaining steps, the legal and the surgical one, and the only thing that still reminds me of my transition is my HRT regimen? I've never thought of living life as just a woman (without the adjective 'trans' coming up immediately). And this is something that I must navigate at some point.
I'm happy with myself now, though.